Indescribable Lo

It really did start about a year ago when I joined another one of those biotech classes. Yeah call me a nerd but I guess in the words of George Costanza "every relationship has to have a good meeting story". So now I think back, a little more mature, way more experienced in the pleasures of life, and a little more open and willing to give things a shot.. how funny that that is what she thought me. See it hits me now unlike it did back then, that I had a shot at a wonderful girl. I didn't feel comfortable that she was the same height as me, but that only shows my own insecurity I guess. She was different then all the other girls I would pursue. Better yet, she was way different then the girl I was with at the time. But simply put, she rocked my world. Emotionally that is. Emotionally enough that till this point in time I still think about her daily. Think about not only that chance I had last summer where instead of taking Chivo to lunch I could of taken her. The chance to solidify something that I long for now. The chance to make her mine. That wasn't the only shot, but it sure would have been the jumping point to something special, I guarantee that. Wow and I still look back at her that one night in early April when I picked her up, for what I can only hope was as an unforgettable night for her as it was for me. Her genuine smile was the first to bring me in, and it really did not hurt that she really did look good. And I saw picture after picture of her and every time she would look even more beautiful; even more desirable. Insecurities really ruin people because I know she probably didn't see herself the same way I saw her. But I really did blow it I guess, and now it reminds me of something I just recently read. "What bugs me for sure is that I liked her, since last year, and I didn't say anything, I blew my chance. I should be smart, not a smartass. Whatever she's heard it is probably the worst of me. That's what I get. Lesson learned". It really is something similar, and although I do not know that whole story from where I grabbed this quote it could of ended better for him. At least that is what he would of wanted, I'm guessing. So to you.. so beautiful and true.. with nothing to do.. just know that I miss you. Thanks for bringing the best out of me Lo..